From My Autobiography

Don’t have the time written for the following but I think it was around 2012 – 2014

As I meditated I experienced myself as Devi so I asked and contemplated the question :

Oh Divine Mother, who are you?

Here’s the answer that came:

  1. Everything runs on energy. I am the the energy of the cosmos.
  2. Matter cannot be created or destroyed. It can only change. In the heart of matter there is no matter.
  3. Hence all matter is my illusion.
  4. So I am embedded in every particle of the universe. You cannot see me.
  5. I am the vibration of the universe as it dances around.
  6. My behavior is mysterious but in the highest frequencies  I am spirit.
  7. The tornadoes, the flowers and everything reflect a certain pattern according to how long it exists in the seen and seeded universe.
  8. I am also consciousness.
  9. This consciousness and energy always exists.
  10. This play of consciousness will always exist but the know-er can only know one moment in time.
  11. Who is the “knower”?- The “knower” can only know the known when the “knower” and the known becomes “being”.
  12. I take the “knower” to the known.
  13. The known can be known in the human body or similar body types in similar planets, when truth is sought.
  14. Separate from my illusory nature, I exist in the human body in a primal nature  responsible for the assimilation of one matter into another providing energy for the entity.
  15. The energy elements of the sun, wind, earth are converted by these plants into food. The human body converts these into energy. The organism then uses the energy to live and evolve.
  16. So I am hidden in the spark of the human being.
  17. My energy can be used for good or evil depending on the brain and emotions of the human being.
  18. Those of a primal nature are destructive and those that operate at a higher level of thinking are creative.
  19. In terms of creativity, I am responsible for all the art, music, literature and science.
  20. I am the different forms of vibration.
  21. I am joy.
  22. I am bliss.
  23. I am always with you. You cannot exist without me.
  24. I am the divine force in the guru.
  25. I do the work of consciousness.
  26. Without me no work can be done
  27. My modes of operation is within the three “gunas”.
  28. I am the all possibilities of human expression.
  29. I am the living force in the seeds.
  30. I am the love energy that brings about creation
  31. I am beyond space and time.
  32. From me all beings of all realms come into being
  33. My experiences are vast and complete evolution takes the human back to see his divinity-to see the possibilities.
  34. I am the Shakti in Shiva.
  35. My face is reflected in the knower of the known.
  36. I am absolute power.
  37. I am the force in the wind.
  38. I am the force in the atom.
  39. I am in the fire of the volcano.
  40. I am Devi. I am felt in the utterance of “maahh”.
  41. The universe springs from within me and I am part of all avatars, gurus, saints and sages.
  42. For it is I who gives them energy and wisdom.
  43. And through them knowledge and wisdom is spread according to their frequency of vibration.
  44. I work through words, energy, light and sound and the emotion of the sacred heart.
  45. It is by my intelligence that the blueprint of all forms or yantras  exists for it is the very nature of energy vibration.
  46. From yantras all forms flow into being existing in the manifested universe of sound, light, energy into matter.
This entry was posted on August 2, 2018.

The “Self” of “I” or the “I” of “Self”?

Sharing some old writings.

The “self” of “I” or the “I” of “self

In life we operate in two states of the self. We don’t really recognize this and so we hear stories from the Enlightened ones of the self and the ego.

I will jump right in and give examples:

If someone asks you “who are you”

You might respond in 2 ways:

1.”I am so and so (whatever name you have) “

2.”My name is so and so”

In # 1 you are responding from your little self and #2 you are responding from your bigger self. In terms of spirituality or humanity “little” meaning you associate more with the ego self of this physical plane more than your real self. The “big” self is the observer self or the “state of awareness” self – the one that says that this is just my designated self on this physical plane. In case #1, the person will only give his name when you ask –“What is your name?”

The Enlightened master if you ask who are you will only “smile” and go into bliss for he cannot say a name. Maybe he/she might say “Ananda”(meaning bliss), or “SatChitAnand”( truth, consciousness, bliss). So in India when a sanayasa( monk/nun/ renunciant) takes the vow, his old name is discarded and a new one is given most likely with the word “Ananda” at the end of it. He is “reborn” striving to the state of “SatChitAnand”.  Since in the old days in India only men went to ashrams so this worked well. But then there were many women Indian saints – many unknown. There were no institutions to name them since they did not live in an ashram so they were simply called “Maa.” In modern times we know of women saints like “Anandamayi Maa” and the other Indian masters like “Ammaji” which just means mother. “Maa” also refers to the creator (since we all came from a “Maa” or mother) and the force within us for any spirituality of bliss or consciousness to take place in any human.

The Buddha and the Christ were not their real names, since they were in the state of the enlightened.

Hinduism goes back before Christ and if we are to talk of Krishna. He lived the life of a householder, king playing many roles but was also absorbed in the state of the highest self, while carrying out his duties. He was addressed by several names and played the part of the many.

The common thing of all these great beings is that they all had a guru.

 

This entry was posted on April 23, 2018.

Sometimes Words Are Not Necessary

It has been trying on the body these last few months but I am better now. Lost a lot of weight. I am happy that I can still just shift into a space of sweetness.

I don’t have words to describe this wonderful nameless, formless, beautiful energy of God.

Sometimes no words are necessary.

 

 

 

This entry was posted on January 19, 2018.

Where are we Heading?

My thoughts for today.

In this time of great upheaval, as the world stands on the precipice of war, mother nature is trying to help us avoid this. The natural disasters in no way compare to nuclear war which damages the atmosphere and everything around for many years. These events compels us to help our fellowman and makes us remember to be kind, to be considerate and respectful to others and share the resources of the world. When disaster strikes we see the best in humanity. When things are going too good people get restless.

Understanding our own nature will help us understand the nature around us and see that we are connected and part of everything.

Today our most watched TV shows are about solving murders and some of them are very graphic. Now children growing up looking at this stuff. Seeing something over and over makes one accustomed to it and it sort of gets acceptable. Mind you, I know that this is the reality but we don’t have to show such stuff. Sometimes I wonder about our media? They have their own agendas. Everything is about making money and building an economy.

An economy based on deception will ultimately collapse.

We actually don’t know why we exist and what it is we are here on this planet for. So we try to create things that make us happy. It does not seem to work because people who have lots of money are still unhappy. So we are working overtime most of our live to keep this monster economy going and our lives are slowly passing by with us not truly living. We have no way to avoid being part of everything in order just to have our basic needs met.

I think we will have to ultimately face the reality that we are a planet(one thing) and that co-operation will get us more fruits rather than competition. This old way of seeing things will have to change. Our old modalities will have to shift. Sometimes I think that the “cave man mentality” is still there  so clubs have been replaced by guns and missiles. If people build something then they will always want to use it. I think it is the time for the “feminine” to take root.

Mother nature will always win so we have to understand our own nature and align our society and ourselves with nature. There is an intelligence working here beyond our intelligence.

This entry was posted on September 25, 2017.

We are Souls on a Journey of Love

The effects of hurricane Harvey are catastrophic and we salute all the heroes who have being working night and day to help. Nature makes us realize how life is such a gift and at any moment things can change.

The “march” in my song is not a literal march. It is about the words that are our tools; it’s about bringing out the best in our being as we see in the kindness and cooperation that we are witnessing now.

We can say that the rains of Harvey washed some of the hate that was spewing out in recent times. At this moment we are indeed the words of kindness and cooperation.

Here’s my song:

This entry was posted on August 31, 2017.

How I Enjoyed the Solar Eclipse 2017

Seeing the pics on TV was wonderful but I wondered what would I feel outside?

I walked barefoot in my yard and started being wrapped up in bliss and joy. My nervous system was wrapped into a euphoric state of wonderfulness. As I write I am trying to remember. I am still in a state of wonderful bliss and harmony. It was not enormous eneregy pouring through my system as sometimes happens. I think, since some of the energy of th sun was blocked off so the less energy and the effect of the moon was totally effecting the Ida and pingalla within my being. It was certainly so wonderful as my feet was grounded in the earth, and a gentle breeze was blowing against my skin.

I decided I must takes some pictures while I was feeling so so wonderful. Here they are. I captured some of the wonderful rays. Sometimes we forget how much the effect the sun and moon have on our system and how much we are part of the whole. We are so connected to nature. Many are just looking at the beauty but there is more to be experienced.

Pretty interesting the first and last photo.

 

This entry was posted on August 21, 2017.

We are Souls

 

Here’s my song:

 

This entry was posted on August 14, 2017.

The Magnificence of the Divine Intelligence

The mala (garland)represent the cycle of birth and rebirth and the infinite cycle of creation. The feet of the Guru represents the lost of the ego and the surrender. The flowers is the beauty of the love we share with each other as we connect to each other with the heart.

Been a while since I blogged anything. My life has reached a stage where the divine force and intelligence of the universe is running my “being” in a state that cannot be understood by many.

This divine energy of the creator is part of the creator and is embedded in us and allows us to create the life we want. But in some of us who ask the question in some lifetime “who are you God?, “who am I?”, or “I love you so much God, I can’t get you out of my mind”, then the universe begins to dance to your answers. You begin a magical journey through lifetimes and you can continue your efforts, or get lost in this illusory world again.

I was born “awakened” and had to go through lots of trials to come to my state of “being.” This intelligence that I call the Divine Mother that controls my very breath is the most intelligence force in the seen and unseen universe. She creates the world of forms. Man’s technology cannot match her technology. Our understanding of the ourselves and how things work are still not advanced. Will we destroy ourselves and have to start over?

I write now as I see her how she has turned me into the “the Satguru.” It is only that intelligence and energy that can mold anyone and anything. Many gurus are here on the planet and they teach different classes. Just as in school many are gong to elementary school, and then less to high school, then less to college level and it lessens quite a bit to the doctorate level. So too the many gurus are there guiding many others. It is the divine mother that is guiding in the Guru’s and everyone is drawn towards the guru that he or she needs.

As I was doing my sadhana I had many experiences that help to mold me into entering into this state of grace and surrender. I remember the first experience that blew my mind away. This was only about 2 yrs after I met my Guru, the great Siddha Om Maa Shree Nandini Maa. I was in meditation and was not even thinking about Lord Shiva – the master of yoga. I sat there and I began experience that I was Lord Shiva sitting in meditation but I was also here in my room sitting in my body looking at Lord Shiva. I was the same being but was also observing myself. It was something that shocked my system of comprehension and although it did not last long, I was somewhat kind of perturbed. I have no idea what other people experience but this was one of my first experiences and many times on my journey I would question my own sanity. This human body and comprehension of how it works is one of the things that all of us must try to understand. The energy system and the dynamics of the immune system and the frequency of vibration.

The Divine Mother is the one that will take the seeker to the right Guru and the one who will take us to the world of the “void” where no time, no sound, no light exist, but just consciousness. There is no energy to feel since the energy of the shakti  cannot be felt for it too has become part of the consciousness.

For most of my life I would feel this energy within me but could not understand. But the Divine Mother was always working within me and now I realized  many things about myself for some time now. No one has to become a guru but the divine mother is the one who will carve you into what you have to emanate to the world. No one understood Shree Nandini Maa and  no one will really understand me so I have given up explaining myself to others.

How can I explain that I am like the living mantras. Many invite me to their prayers but how can I say to them, I don’t come because I experience your prayers and mantras within me. If I am in a house and someone is praying in a separate room I feel the prayers and then I send my blessings. My nervous system is so sensitive to energy or vibration that sometimes it’s too much for the body. Contrary to what all believes I don’t pray or meditate all day. In fact I don’t. It is difficult to teach meditation since my being just goes into silence. I learned that during my 7 day online program. I have learned during the past few years is that seekers come and sit in my presence they will be swept into a space of no thoughts. They would say “For the first time in my life I experienced no thoughts and felt so peaceful”. For some it’s a shock and some get scared. Others can go into states of bliss, so it all depends on the seeker.

What I have become, I cannot explain.  I move with the force of the creator and just sends out love into the world. My assignment in this incarnation is about love, divine love. The thing I am discovering is that my darshan overwhelms some so I am weary of giving darshan to many. I know that true seekers will be guided to me if it is meant to be. Giving a name to myself puts me in  a “box of expectation of behavior” and limits my being. So I am no one and nothing but play the various roles as they appear before me. Even sometimes I become the essence of the Gods or Guru’s of the devotee.

So these are my thoughts on this Guru Purnima day. I have no expectations of anything. I wear clothes that is comfortably for my state and I help others who seek guidance. I still  play the role of the householder and realize that Shree Nandini Maa was such a great being that no one really understood her and that no one will really understand me.

Happy Guru Purnima to all who read.

May you expand the heart with divine love and may you be filled with bliss.

Peace unto you.

 

 

 

This entry was posted on July 9, 2017.

See You There

See you tomorrow at our next satsangh

This entry was posted on May 5, 2017.

Does Time Truly Exist

Does time truly exist?

If I say to you it is now 7:59:01. By the time you check a few seconds have passed so it is no longer valid. We think of time in terms of a linear thing when we relate history of the world. Yes, for all societal functioning purposes it does exists but it is always an instance like a now moment and then it is gone.

Let us think of time in another way. Let us think of time us memory or stored creative action on in the process of being stored. It took about 4.5 billion years to produce you and you are made up of the materials in the universe, both known and unknown, both seen and unseen and you get the gist. With our 5 senses we only comprehend a tiny spectrum of what exists. Scientists tell us there are many more things and as you go into the tiniest of light matter it is but a wave or particle according to the observation . So if you look into us we also vibrate as wave and particles. The difference is that we are not conscious of this.

It is within this wave and vibration that everything is occurring to change matter into the forms we see vibrating at different frequencies. There is an intelligence at work here and together with sound can penetrate and change the pattern of vibration. So time has taken place and was a creative action and became a memory.  Going too deep?

Well the problem with this earth school is that all of us knows that it has to change but how do we change it? So when I say we have to change ourselves from within it does not make any sense to you. Well we are all connected to this wave and particle and we as a form vibrate at a certain frequency and can impact others. Experiments conducted by scientists show the impact of good positive thoughts and emotions on water. The universe is a living thing just as you are and everything is at a different state of consciousness -living in a different sense than as you think.

I have often said that, our very thoughts affect things and people around us. Because we don’t have access to how this is happening we brush it aside, but you know how you feel when you are in a positive environment such as with a friend, parent or baby. When we slow down our breath and listen inward we can get into a place of no time. It is the only place of “no time.” Hence no creative action is taking place or no memory is being accessed or accumulating in our mind.  Time does not exist here. You can come out feeling the deeper aspect of your being now rejuvenated and perhaps changing your ‘vibrational’ frequency. This causes a shift that affects the thoughts and emotions of yourself and those around who affects others since the network is there.

So when I say that we should meditate to start changing things it has a greater meaning behind it.

Besides, thoughts and emotions – the planets, the moon, the sun and certain particles from the sun affect us. This is why there are certain rituals from the Hindu philosophy to help in this. If you can meditate and change your frequency then these things cannot affect you as much.

All creative memory is stored within us and as humans, part of it is written into our genes.

As we are speaking now the brain and the nervous system is changing within us. We have to evolve whether we like it or not. Some of the modern day health problems such as some migraines, TMJ, fibromyalgia have no real cause but just an effect of human evolution(I am not referring to Darwin’s Theory).  Sound therapy, together with exercise may shift the ‘vibrational’ field helping those with depression.

Anyways, I am shifting from the topic here so let’s get back into it. I once heard that there was a study of a few thousand people meditating for a certain amount of time and the crime rate dropped in the city. I cannot verify the figures here but I see articles on my Facebook wall of the positive change in behavior of children sitting in silence in some schools.

I will give you another example. How do you feel when you go to the church, temple, mosque or other places of God worship? It feels nice , does it not? We bring out our love for God here and share it among ourselves. It is a field of vibration that was created here and you feel it. The way the building is designed helps a little towards storing this energy. Time has kind of slowed down here. Depending on the place an hour can pass by easily and you would have not noticed it if you are a ‘meditator’. The word meditation sort of puts the process of consciousness or attempting to be conscious in a box but I don’t have any other word for it.

Some people hold this frequency within them and if you are conscious enough, when sitting in their company hours can go by and you would not know. It was my experience with my guru Sri Nandini Maa. When I sat in her company hours went by without me being aware of it and she actually had to “chase” us home, lol.  I spoke of the Guru in one of my earlier posts about being a reflection of us. In those days I would think how fortunate I was to sit in such great company. I wondered ” Is this how the the disciples felt around Jesus or the gopis felt around Sri Krishna”?

I am not saying that this is all we have to do to change things and to drop everything and just do this. For many of us who are drawn to do things then we must do it, but to find the best solutions to do those things still comes from inside. I always say we must develop ourselves in every way and have a good life. I am just expressing what I am here to express in the world. It is a tiny expression but we are all expressions.

The intelligence in the universe creates what is needed in the world. Sometimes things are also taken away  because that is what is needed also. I always say that the only true constant in the universe is change and adapting to change is a constant thing to deal with.

Out of the hours in a day spend more time in positive thinking. Change thought patterns, change us:-)

This entry was posted on April 25, 2017.