Guru Purnima Celebrations 2021

I have stopped writing in this blog but I just had to write about our Guru Purnima Celebrations. My students outdid themselves and there was so much love in the Zoom room. My students have paid attention and are committed and are worth more than one thousand who may attend and do nothing. The grace of God descends and blesses all and all are drawn to where they are ready to receive and benefit from.

My students have touched my heart so much that I wish to share anonymously, some of their expressions. I share the following:

A wonderful, heartfelt poem, a beautiful painting that speaks, and a magnanimous speech written with such love, truth and thoughtfulness.

I have added another speech at the end, that was forwarded to me after I wrote this. It’s called ‘What is a Guru”.

True Guru

Never take for granted

Where a Guru might be planted..

Many travel far abroad

To see the face of God,

But what if what you’re looking for

Is living

in your own backyard?


The preachers preach and preach,

But Maa has come to love and teach,

Without the feminine expression,

There would be minimal impression…


Forget the talk of sin,

The Guru is within

That will be your guide.

If you can lose your pride


But always be aware

And then proceed with care,

For if you realize truth inside,

There is no place to hide.


Always see reality

Let this be your finality,

And when you’re growing old,

You will come forth as gold.


Happy Guru Purnima!

On this very auspicious day my humble pranams (salutation) to all the Gurus in physical form and not in the physical.  To all the saints and sages, to my parents, to every single thing that has taught me along this journey into my soul.  Jai Shree Parbatee Maa! My life was changed Dec 31st, 2006.  One touch of your body and my whole life changed.  I never understood what awakening was when this happened on 2007. 

Today I feel the Guru works on all layers.  The sadguru makes you the best poet, the best mother, the best singer, the best householders, and all other different aspects of your life.  As I walk in the world and think of the Sadguru everything gets done at the right time.  The people that get in contact with me feel the love, get healing, feel peace and support.  As I stand among the people they are getting the essence of the Guru because the Guru is working through me.  I am just observing as it is happening and when the people love and respect me then more of this beauty of the Guru opens up and is shared.  Always remain at the feet of the Master with humility and with love to learn to know as a seeker.  Maa has said many times that always say you don’t know and more doors open.  When you say you don’t know then the universe opens up in so many ways that you can’t imagine.  It is hard to write and capture the Sadguru because it is so vast and made up of everything.  We must open our understanding on how it works in us and learn how the Guru works through us.  I am blessed to be in this company of a true siddha yogi, who exploded in so much shakti.  This Shakti has taken me over and I am at your feet and at your service. 

My life has become devoted to you my Guru and nothing in this world tastes so sweet as being in your presence.   I am wearing the perfume of Shree Parbatee Maa and this fragrance cannot be found in any store.  Not Macy’s, not Dillard and no Saks Fifth Avenue.  This fragrance has come from the Himalaya and is hard to find.  Only if you are a true seeker can you find this Shree Parbatee Maa’s perfume. 


Another speech forwarded to me from on of my students explaining what is a guru:


In the passage of life we are having an infinity amount of experiences. We have learned from different circumstances that have been put in front of us. In the process we have learned that love is the main energy that supports the creation of humanity and is the main purpose of life.
At that point of life an spiritual leader such as a Guru comes into our life to prepare us to continue the spiritual path providing us with the guidance and teachings as well as bringing the meditation practice into our life.
God put us on the path of this enlightened being. We are very fortunate to become a Guru’s disciple and also to continue it’s teachings of love throughout our lifetime. 
We are blessed and our called is to continue the Guru’s work inspiring others to make this beautiful planet a better place to live creating a peaceful and a loving world

This entry was posted on July 26, 2021.

Energy – The Metamorphosis of the Universe

Everything in our lives is the exchange of energy. It is what we do with our energy that drives our world.

As we eat an apple, it soon becomes a part of us. So whatever we eat each day is always becoming part or who we are. The apple tree bore apples because it got the nutrition all the elements of nature. So the tree was necessary to convert the elements to food for our digestive system. According to the science of Ayurveda, every food has a hidden nature and eating the right kind of food for our nature helps us.

Similarly as someone says some kind or angry words to us it becomes part of us. For example if someone says they love you, energies or impulses move within you and there’s a kind of feeling in the heart. The subtle body records this and it becomes part of you. There was a certain energy being given by the person who created the words that got transferred to you.

So just imagine if they said that they hated you. This would have created chaotic energy within you and you could have easily reacted and passed this on to someone else.

When we look at a flower we get a beautiful feeling from the flower. So the energy that created the flower, has been received maybe in terms of its color, beauty or fragrance. We are receiving the intelligent and beautiful energy of the creator. It is why we use flowers for wedding, funerals, pujas, for any beautiful occasion or to patch a quarrel.

Another way that energy is exchanged is through sounds. Hearing a song on the radio soon becomes part of you. You might soon begin hearing it within you when you are not even listening. Do you see how our brain and nervous system work? Everything and everyone gives and receive energy.

Different kinds of music affects our brain and nervous system. We all know about the effect of classical music. The energy of exchange is in the sound itself.

Mantras go at deeper level to affect us also. The way and feeling and pronunciation of the mantra also causes a different kind of energy to be exchanged in the human body. Did you know you can actually feel the effect? Since it is sound it works on a similar but not the same to music.

When we sing kirtan or gospel or songs to God there is an exchange here also. We connect with the person singing but we connect with each other through our emotions and our connection and ideology of praising God together. We exchange good energy together. Kirtan combines the emotion with some of the words of mantras or names of God having a more profound effect in the subtle layer.

Scientists have now found that water holds memory. Good thoughts of love and gratitude changes the subtle energy of the water beautifully, while hate or negative thoughts creates some ugly looking energy. You can see the movie “Secret of Water” or catch stuff on the internet. The ancients knew about blessing food and water.

So the whole universe came into being just for us to exchange energies with it and we can never be separated because we need the whole universe(which includes us). This is the creation of the Divine. This is the immutability and the infinity of the Divine.

The ability to take this life and NOT create chaotic energy while you evolve in the world is your challenge. One must develop oneself internally. One must also see and face the truth about oneself. Every circumstance and the emotions is indeed recorded within you. Energy can get rid of unwanted records in your system as well. You just have to learn that.

The only thing that energy cannot change is the soul. This is your vehicle to live and experience this world through all it’s rough and happy times. Let us use our resources and our expressions wisely.

This entry was posted on January 19, 2021.

Food – Essential to Life


Food – essential to life.

You come home from the grocery store and drop the grocery down. Question: how do you treat the food? Do you chuck it on the floor like trash or do you thing of it as your precious cargo? As I shared earlier in a previous video about where out food comes from, now where it goes when it reaches your home is another thing to think of. The way we take care and treat our food is important. It’s just as sacred as the one who created it. We get busy but if we get in the good habit of putting it away in the pantry and refrigerator with a good feeling then we are already putting good vibes in our food. Our food puja starts there. Because food is plentiful here in America, we kind of take it for granted. – like it’s just something we eat. The quality of food is tied to the way we treat it also.

How do you eat an apple? Do you cut it up and eat it with a fork? After washing the apple and your hands, you can cut it up or just bite into it. You might find you enjoy it better by using your hands to eat it rather than using cutlery because our hands give out energy also. If you have good vibes your energy is transmitted to the apple. Also natural intelligence in the body is sort of connecting to the apple. This is why many people will ask someone such as a saint or guru to touch or bless their food. So, as you form a sacred relationship with God and even have a reverence for your food then the food will actually taste better and have good vibrations. You can check about the effects of prayer or good thoughts on water.

In Ayurveda food is classified into 3 types – sattvic, rajasic and tamasic. You can read about them if you wish. As I did sadhana I began to become aware of the affect of foods on my system. I never tried limiting myself from foods such as onions and garlic but I moved away from them because I would notice the difference in my body. Usually you get advice on what to eat on the path(more sattvic food) but the path was leading me to experience the effects of the food on the body. So, when I go to the grocery, I can hold the foods in my hand and sometimes I need to put it up to my forehead and I would know the nature or effect of that food so I would buy it or not. Sometimes it may be a little cloudy in knowing and I would buy but the moment I put it in my mouth I can feel it. So, after many years, guess what? All the foods that yogis would say to stay away from, it naturally came about in me to not have those foods because of the way I felt when I eat it. Then it had dawned on me, that this is how the science of food classification came about in Ayurveda. My Guruji always said that things would happen automatically. This is why I believe in this path, although I sometimes I doubted it a bit at first.

Nowadays, some people are thinking about going back to a diet that our ancestors ate. Would that work – maybe, maybe not. Here are some things to consider:

Our whole digestive system has changed. Our digestive system is made up of different organisms that help us digest. With the kinds of food and preservatives we have been using for decades has caused some of the organisms to die off so we are having a hard time digesting some food.

We as a species have changed from our ancestors and the needs of the body will keep changing. Because of some reason our bodies can no longer digest wheat products whether it is our change or the wheat changed. Also, there is a psychological change in consciousness in our feelings as conscious beings towards the animals and the planet. So is nature changing our nature? An adult does not eat the food of a toddler. In the same way as more humans becomes more conscious beings then is it possible that diets have to change?

Our job and lifestyles have changed so the amount and kind of food we eat have changed and will continue to change. This is why experts come up with one diet after the next. The portions and other things will keep changing. We live in a changing universe. Nothing is stagnant.

They come out with one superfood after the next and everyone gets on it but food alone does not make us healthy – our habits, our thoughts, energies from our relationships(people) places, animals and things also. Of course, you have to eat plenty of fresh food and vegetables, stay away from junk food and don’t eat things that have too much additives as all experts say. But as you do sadhana you will have to pay attention and change your diet as you change – sattvic thoughts, sattvic food, sattvic energy etc.

May God bless you and keep you healthy and safe.

This entry was posted on August 25, 2020.

Happy Navraatri

May the Goddess bless you with love, healing and transformation, and as you move into light and love and become more conscious beings. Do not fear, have faith and have courage. Remain safe.

Reflections of the Divine Mother:

  1. Everything runs on energy. I am the the energy of the cosmos.
  2. Matter cannot be created or destroyed. It can only change. In the heart of matter there is no matter.
  3. Hence all matter is my illusion.
  4. So I am embedded in every particle of the universe. You cannot see me.
  5. I am the vibration of the universe as it dances around.
  6. My behavior is mysterious but in the highest frequencies  I am spirit.
  7. The tornadoes, the flowers and everything reflect a certain pattern according to how long it exists in the seen and seeded universe.
  8. I am also consciousness.
  9. This consciousness and energy always exists.
  10. This play of consciousness will always exist but the know-er can only know one moment in time.
  11. Who is the “knower”?- The “knower” can only know the known when the “knower” and the known becomes “being”.
  12. I take the “knower” to the known.
  13. The known can be known in the human body or similar body types in similar planets, when truth is sought.
  14. Separate from my illusory nature, I exist in the human body in a primal nature  responsible for the assimilation of one matter into another providing energy for the entity.
  15. The energy elements of the sun, wind, earth are converted by these plants into food. The human body converts these into energy. The organism then uses the energy to live and evolve.
  16. So I am hidden in the spark of the human being.
  17. My energy can be used for good or evil depending on the brain and emotions of the human being.
  18. Those of a primal nature are destructive and those that operate at a higher level of thinking are creative.
  19. In terms of creativity, I am responsible for all the art, music, literature and science.
  20. I am the different forms of vibration.
  21. I am joy.
  22. I am bliss.
  23. I am always with you. You cannot exist without me.
  24. I am the divine force in the guru.
  25. I do the work of consciousness.
  26. Without me no work can be done
  27. My modes of operation is within the three “gunas”.
  28. I am the all possibilities of human expression.
  29. I am the living force in the seeds.
  30. I am the love energy that brings about creation
  31. I am beyond space and time.
  32. From me all beings of all realms come into being
  33. My experiences are vast and complete evolution takes the human back to see his divinity-to see the possibilities.
  34. I am the Shakti in Shiva.
  35. My face is reflected in the knower of the known.
  36. I am absolute power.
  37. I am the force in the wind.
  38. I am the force in the atom.
  39. I am in the fire of the volcano.
  40. I am Devi(the Goddess). I am felt in the utterance of “maahh”.
  41. The universe springs from within me and I am part of all avatars, gurus, saints and sages.
  42. For it is I who gives them energy and wisdom.
  43. And through them knowledge and wisdom is spread according to their frequency of vibration.
  44. I work through words, energy, light and sound and the emotion of the sacred heart.
  45. It is by my intelligence that the blueprint of all forms or yantras  exists for it is the very nature of energy vibration.
  46. From yantras all forms flow into being existing in the manifested universe of sound, light, energy into matter.
This entry was posted on March 29, 2020.

Your Time for Introspection

Sometimes we have to look at things from a different perspective. Sometimes things can be blessings in disguise. FDR said: “Only Thing We Have to Fear Is Fear Itself.” This situation will pass, have no fear. Look now at the blessings in your life.

When this is over what will you change about your life?

The globe is but a tiny spec in the universe. It took billions of what we call years to bring you into being. We must take care of the earth as she has taken care of us. We must be weary of the resources we manufacture that are just pure waste or what we buy that are not very useful. Destroying more of nature will bring more weather changes and more viruses.

Sharing one of my songs that I shared before.

We want, love, peace and joy so if we sing it the words will go deep inside to bring it about. So, this is meaning behind the first 2 lines.

We are life, we are hope, we are joy.

We are love we peace, we are one.

God bless you and have a wonderful glorious day!

This entry was posted on March 18, 2020.

Just Felt Like Writing about the Soul

Sometimes it is easier to explain stuff as someone else writing so I have written as what God might say.

I have given you a piece of myself in my own image which is the atma or soul so that you could live in the “becoming.” Since I am eternal so to is the nature of the atma in you. You are made up of all the experiences you encounter from life to life. Together with the genetic imprint of your parents and ancestry it wields your tendencies, aspirations passions and your nature. While you are on this earth you are also physically made of up of the food you eat, the elements and the company you keep so you are part of the planet. If you could feel your atma without all of this then you will feel me completely for I am not separate from it. Your role of experiencing the earth and transforming it as you transform yourself is what life is all about.

You are co-creators with me and each other and by having free will you can do great works. Just as you have changed from your ancestors, so to you have the ability to change your descendants. If you want your descendants to be war-like then you fight wars. If you want your descendants to be peaceful then you propagate peace. If you want your descendants to be loving and have common sense then you propagate that. It is simple because you are reborn as your descendants or you choose your family according to what you are wanting to improve about yourself or work on(or have a different life experience) in the future. The choice would be what you are made up at the moment of your last death or even your last thought which will be the predominant thing. For the wheel of the “becoming” or world of change and transformation is what the physicality of life or the experience while in a body. The spirituality is the whole of life for the spirit lives in death and life. The spirit is the atma(soul) plus the energy of the storage of data or experiences that you are taking with you all the time. Different words convey different meanings so hopefully my words don’t confuse. Sometimes it is difficult to explain things.

If you travel to another country and live there, you will always be attracted to the people of the same character that you had and the same kind of people will be attracted to you. So, it is the same after you die. It makes sense that if you live a good life then you will be surrounded by similar beings. There is no literal heaven or hell. If you are a tormented soul then you are already in hell while living in your body. The atma after death does not have a body to burn. You burn the body here.

This world of the “becoming” is just pure energy. Nothing is stagnant. Everything is moving and transforming. Perhaps, new lifeforms, new planets, new dimensions and new universes. Nothing is impossible for there is a mirror effect in creation. When you solve a new mystery a new one is born for the universe also lives off your perceptions.

This is my divine play, my divine work which has been set in motion. There are billions of galaxies and billions of planets. I cannot have just one incarnation of one son or one daughter or one teacher. There has to be many teachers for the many students, for time is infinite so anyone seeking a genuine teacher will eventually cross paths with one. “God-like” beings are always roaming the earth and you will only meet one when you are ready. This is written into the creation itself. This universe is still young and so are you. There are other celestial beings and other dimensions, but you should not meddle with that. Fix your own self, fix your own planet. You all have the necessary technology built into you to become “God-like” beings. You must develop your inner human technology.

Perception and reality are intertwined. Work on your inner self and give rise to a good society and experience a glorious life for the future depends on each one of you.

These are simple words because if it is written in the context of Prakritri and Paramatmaa it will not be understood.

This entry was posted on March 1, 2020.

A Song – Freedom

Sometimes I create small songs, sometimes I write philosophy, sometimes I write little poems, sometimes I think of people and send my love to them and sometimes I play Candy Crush (lol). Sometimes my being pick up the waves of what’s going on and it does not feel well. My body aches and I have a hard time going out to stores and other places. If you don’t know, our being feels the vibration or energy of others and we share this. It is those times that I wish I had earned lots of money so that I would have a retreat away from all of this; somewhere near the mountain or ocean where my body feels at ease. Now I understand why they build monasteries and ashrams away from society and more in nature, especially in mountainous areas.

One thing is at whatever frequency we vibrate, sometimes if some of us connect to others we can induce the beginning of healing just by our voice or touch.

Anyways, here is one of the songs I wrote a few years ago that lifts me up. When I say “free for free” I am not talking about freedom of country but freedom of the self to feel free. Freedom to not be limited to other peoples ideas of God, philosophies, food etc. We can work on ourselves for free. There is so much free information out there.

If I can spread some joy it will reflect back to me, you know. So sing with me or sing to some other tune and have a glorious day!

So why did Lord Krishna revealed himself and shared the knowledge to Arjuna and to no one else?

For the obvious reasons of character we would say that this is why. Duryodhana was full of ego while Arjuna was not since he surrendered himself to the Lord. Arjuna had the mind and heart of someone that was worthy of Shree Krishna’s revelation. What kind of mind surrenders?

When he was under training to shoot the arrow and his Guru said to shoot the bird only he among the warriors was so focused that he said he only saw the eye of the bird, whereas the others saw the branches and other things. His mind was not wavering, it was focused. He was steady. A meditative mind is steady and focused.
How many of us can see the divine in others? Only he had the ability to see Lord Krishna as a friend and as the divine. He knew Shree Krishna was divine and got the whole truth when Shree Krishna revealed his other forms. Most people only know the roles that they are in. We have a different relationships with each person: mother, daughter, aunt, grandmother, friend, in-laws, co-worker, Facebook friend, priest or pundit etc. For each relationship we begin to play a role of what we talk about and the extent of closeness we have with that person. So we have different levels of love and respect according to the acquaintances. So if God decided to manifest in a human form in front of you would you be able to recognize him? If he showed up us someone you know, you will only know him as that acquaintance.
So how would you know? Will you rely on someone else to make the observation and then you concur or would you know yourself? You might be spiritually aware from experiencing the spirit within yourself to recognize it. If you have an open mind and an open heart and have a true connection to God then you will feel it so you might be spiritually aware enough.

An open mind and a open heart is necessary and the connection between the brain and the heart in the human body is very important. Meditation on any form of God with love will begin your journey to know spirit for this is the way to expand your heart. Sitting down and observing your thoughts leave your system will cause a more open mind as it becomes fresh with awareness instead of a loaded database running SQL queries.
Then you can become like Arjuna. Arjuna was able to see his Lord Krishna in more than one role and have such a relationship. He was able to surrender. There are only few people capable of doing this in the world. I only know of one so far.

The Bhagavad Gita is always valid in every age since the war within human beings is always going on and expels into relationships, society and countries. Some of the esoteric meanings of the Bhagavad Gita are explained by Yogannanda.

Our ways of acknowledging God might be different but it’s nice to share the planet with you.

Marketing and Programming

Today everything is marketed. Food, clothes, sex, real estate, politics, spirituality, religion and everything you can think about. There are different brands in everything. It’s up to the marketer to change your thinking and make you purchase what they are selling. The TV and media hosts the programming that would allow the marketer to get his goods sold. In a way it’s good to see if you need something you know where to get it. However did you know that you needed it before they showed it?

How many things did you buy after someone else bought it and you had to have it? How many things around the house do you use? You don’t know how much you are being programmed. Then the programmer gets you hooked just like drugs. Ironically in the world of technology it is a real computer programmer that programs your program. The TV shows are referred to as a program. How programmed are you? Technology is great, shows and movies are great but you have to understand how not to susceptible to certain goods and ideology. Even certain ideologies are presented in movies for you to think about. Certain ideologies that will get you with the program.

Does your conditioned mind allow you to see beyond the program?

This entry was posted on October 13, 2019.

Memory of Past Lives

Past Life Memory from a Dream

Today I felt like sharing some of my writing. Have you ever had a past life memory?

Excepts from my autobiography

“I was somewhere in  another place on a mountain. It looked like night because there were stars. We stood on a sort of precipice. I was shown the earth down below in space. It looked like a huge light ball covered with yellow electricity( if you can draw this). It was spinning very fast and this person dressed in orange robes like a ancient rishi or sage(orange clothes with stick and water pot in hand) was standing below this huge tree. He was speaking to this young girl about 9 or 10 years of age. That girl was me. So I was witnessing the whole scene of myself interacting with this being or ancient Guru. He was showing me the earth down below. I could only see me from the back and I had long black hair. He was speaking to me but not with the mouth but with the mind. The earth was spinning very fast and I could see the incarnations of Ram & Seeta, Krishna and other people pop up from the earth from time to time. I saw them ascending upwards from the earth. I understood that the spinning represented time passing by. So it meant that time was passing by very fast and I was given the instruction to take birth on earth and spread divine love or love for God. I did not say a word but I was going to jump into the earth and he stopped me. He made me come to the earth using a passageway by going through the earth or mountain that I was standing on. I started to go downwards through the earth like tunnel and then I forgot who I was and came out of the dream or vision. I can’t remember which one. What I remember is that it was so very vivid and colorful and felt so good that I made a sketch of it. Everything was also full of so much light. Not like earth. This was the only sketch of a vision or dream I ever made because it was so profound to me”.

When I look back at my life I could see that I was born with this certain love for God that I could not get out of my system. I always spoke to God in my head like I knew God already and God was beyond the religion and ideologies. I allowed myself to learn about the teachings from the Christian and Hindu philosophies but my relationship was like me and a spouse. I would love God but also quarrel with God.

As the years went by and many miraculous things happened, I have realized that I was born with this great gift that can lead others to experience their true self and for them to experience true meditation.”

This entry was posted on October 17, 2018.